Linda Strawberry

happy halloween!!!
what are you going to be for halloween?
we already started celebrating on saturday...
its justin's birthday on halloween so we will be out eating candy and running around hollywood.
we saw marilyn manson and evan rachel wood the other night. at first i wasnt sure what i thought about their romance..but they did look really happy together..
:)
i wish i could be in utah to see my little nieces trick or treat. they are really adorable. they practically live in their princess dresses.
when i was as little as they are i would sneak tons of candy while we were trick or treating because i knew my mom would take it away and budget it as soon as we got home.
im still a candy addict.
i ate a whole bag of twizzlers yesterday while watching a japanese sci-fi art movie..
:)
xxx

tila and i stopped by a party for victoria's secret and they had decked the whole place out like a pink keg frat party. kegs, campfires, beer bongs, beer pong, pink pool table etc..... i didnt go to college..i just skipped and began rocking ;) the whole place was filled with models and celebrities here and there. we got a little buzzed and started dancing on the grass in our heels...and i almost broke my ankle five times but it was worth it.. we were the only ones. it was liberating.... in a sea of static bored hungry faces..we were stuffing our faces and dancing. :) they had cheeseburgers and hot dogs and cake and the beer cups were HUGE. there was a pretty model working a remote controlled sailboat across the swimming pool. lets see...what else.. oh.. matthew perry walked by me and gawked at him... and he gave me the obligatory 'ya its me' smile.
hollywood smiles..... there's the 'ya its me' chuckle smile, the 'oh god dont hassle me' fake smile, the 'oh im so shocked to have been recognized' fake humility blush smile...... its funny. my favorite is the false laugh.
and then we saw the paparazzi stalk rumer willis as she was getting into a car....and someone told me people call her 'potatohead'
this is a bizarre town!!

i'm curious what you guys have to say about this.
i have posted alot this week about what's going on in burma.
to me that's what the lightbulb symbolizes. we are looking into a great darkness and turning on our light.
we are moving through a spiritual depression.

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i posted about lightbulbs for burma EVERYWHERE yesterday and got a pretty sad response. but i posted a bulletin on myspace titled "Britney Spears!! Naked Photos" and got over 100 replies in only FIVE minutes.. what does that say about us? anyway.. below is my post....

"did i get your attention now?

I'm surprised i havent had more response from this AND i'm surprised how many people asked me what i was talking about.
our media has conditioned us to care about stupid things! our media is controlled. FUCK associated press.

i am not going to read another stupid article about some stupid celebrity who can't handle their own shit.
it makes me mad.

imagine that right now you live in a country where the military can force you to move or to do work.. (including children)...where you will get arrested or killed for merely clapping at a protest. where your INTERNET is taken completely down so you can't communicate with the outside world!
these people are being terrified into silence.

im shocked that people aren't talking about this more.....

the lightbulbs stand for knowledge and for consciousness.

http://www.buzznet.com/groups/lightbulbsforburma/

that's all for now. i'm depressed over this. depressed that things can happen like this in the world without people caring.
do you think the u.s. should get involved? i dont know. i dont know who is really running things. and they sure made a mess out of iraq. if america did help i would say i would only want that if they worked very closely with the rest of the world.
no more cowboy rescue missions.

im gonna go meditate.... i find it very upsetting."

I dont know if you have been following the crisis happening in burma. Protesters against the military junta, including monks, are being arrested and killed. The Burmese Government is scaring the people back into silence by hunting down and arresting not only the leaders of the protest but ANYONE who had anything to do with it. "....participants in the rallies, from leaders like Htay Kywe and prominent monks to people who 'watched, clapped and joined in', according to exile groups."
"Htay Kywe, 39, was the last remaining leader of a group called the 88 Generation Students Group, which led protests against a fuel price increase in mid-August that grew into huge demonstrations against the military junta."
""The crackdown is quite systematic, to create terror, real terror, among the people," said Aung Zaw" ---NewYorkTimes

this is a really horrible humanitarian crisis. There's no way to really know the extent of what's happening there right now.
when i was coming back on the plane from spain with tila i read the wall street journal world issue. They said that in america cnn covered britney spears 37 more times than they covered the crisis in burma. !!!!!
There's a group here on buzznet.com called 'lightbulbs for burma' to raise awareness and public consciousness about this.
its sad that most people dont even know that its happening..
E.G.P's ---will you join the group and take photos of you holding a lightbulb (symbolizing your awareness) and post them to the group and back to this post..
i'll post my picture in an hour....

below is the link to the group...

http://www.buzznet.com/groups/lightbulbsforburma/

Hi hookers. Here's my hot list for today Oct. 14th. 2007. im starting this in the interest of fun. another side... my little injection of pop culture.

first off. AUDREY. i met audrey/twigg a while back and thought she was fabulous..but i didnt realize how fabulous she was til i got over here on buzznet.com and saw all her photos..

Next.. TILA! for breaking the rules and breaking hearts and breaking ratings records. FUCK YEAH.... there's alot more to that girl than meets the eye.. not that our eyes are complaining....



Hayley Williams of Paramore
How cute is this girl! I love her hair! its like flames sprouting out of her head. The music sounds like fallout boy with a girl singer but she's so adorable that im mesmerized. ROCK ON!




KENNA!! im glad to see kenna getting more attention now! he's amazing. I was tempted to try to play keyboards for him but I must STAY FOCUSED! he's fabulous though. YAY KENNA! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JN-ysBuRVQA

www.myspace.com/kenna

PJ HARVEY "white chalk"
i was at sirius radio in new york earlier this week and through a glass wall i saw pj harvey playing the piano and nearly had a heart attack!! she says she had never played the piano before so she decided to make a piano record... :)


finally.. i was talking to someone alot this week discussing one of my favorite poets...and her bloodjet ink.. i had a recording of her reading her own poems that i have misplaced. it was so heavy!
here's one of my favorites..
SYLVIA PLATH

Daddy
Daddy
You do not do, you do not do
Any more, black shoe
In which I have lived like a foot
For thirty years, poor and white,
Barely daring to breathe or Achoo.

Daddy, I have had to kill you.
You died before I had time---
Marble-heavy, a bag full of God,
Ghastly statue with one gray toe
Big as a Frisco seal

And a head in the freakish Atlantic
Where it pours bean green over blue
In the waters off the beautiful Nauset.
I used to pray to recover you.
Ach, du.

In the German tongue, in the Polish town
Scraped flat by the roller
Of wars, wars, wars.
But the name of the town is common.
My Polack friend

Says there are a dozen or two.
So I never could tell where you
Put your foot, your root,
I never could talk to you.
The tongue stuck in my jaw.

It stuck in a barb wire snare.
Ich, ich, ich, ich,
I could hardly speak.
I thought every German was you.
And the language obscene

An engine, an engine,
Chuffing me off like a Jew.
A Jew to Dachau, Auschwitz, Belsen.
I began to talk like a Jew.
I think I may well be a Jew.

The snows of the Tyrol, the clear beer of Vienna
Are not very pure or true.
With my gypsy ancestress and my weird luck
And my Taroc pack and my Taroc pack
I may be a bit of a Jew.

I have always been sacred of you,
With your Luftwaffe, your gobbledygoo.
And your neat mustache
And your Aryan eye, bright blue.
Panzer-man, panzer-man, O You----

Not God but a swastika
So black no sky could squeak through.
Every woman adores a Fascist,
The boot in the face, the brute
Brute heart of a brute like you.

You stand at the blackboard, daddy,
In the picture I have of you,
A cleft in your chin instead of your foot
But no less a devil for that, no not
Any less the black man who

Bit my pretty red heart in two.
I was ten when they buried you.
At twenty I tried to die
And get back, back, back to you.
I thought even the bones would do.

But they pulled me out of the sack,
And they stuck me together with glue.
And then I knew what to do.
I made a model of you,
A man in black with a Meinkampf look

And a love of the rack and the screw.
And I said I do, I do.
So daddy, I'm finally through.
The black telephone's off at the root,
The voices just can't worm through.

If I've killed one man, I've killed two---
The vampire who said he was you
And drank my blood for a year,
Seven years, if you want to know.
Daddy, you can lie back now.

There's a stake in your fat black heart
And the villagers never liked you.
They are dancing and stamping on you.
They always knew it was you.
Daddy, daddy, you bastard, I'm through.

"and while he lays on the wooden floor trying to look up our skirts while shooting his rubberband finger gun, he tells me stories of ana in milan who used to stand above him with no panties on, and technically it wasn't cheating because he never touched her. he says he is going to make me the best lemon meringue i have ever tasted. and he bites my ankles and says "thank god you dont have cankles" he gave me a mix tape.

;) The Lost Record EP for sale on nimbit.com (also itunes, snocap, reverbnation and for order on lindastrawberry.com)

first.. if you have applied for the elite guerilla posse my e.p.g.  name is guerilla PISTOL :) (yours?)
i've been thinking about what specifically i want to talk about as my present cause or issue i care about in the e.g.p. i think that the thing ive been the most concerned with lately is in raising self esteem and self love in people and helping rise above our society's critical negative self deprecating ways. we have really strange standards in our mainstream culture. we rip apart our celebrities and we see beauty in the dangerously thin.... i see so much negativity spreading all around. its hard to keep your head up and stay focused on your dreams and goals with so much working against you.. ive had alot of people write me on myspace and talk to me about how they want to be this and that but dont think they are good enough.. or they are afraid of other people making fun. i want to help change this way of thinking. everyone's ideas are important and we should never give up on our dreams or imagination.
i have been counsellor for people struggling with eating disorders (i have been recovering from anorexia for the last four years and I'm proud to fight and win over my illness daily.... :) I find pride in knowing that even with my flaws i am unique and beautiful. Real women have breakouts, and mood swings and they gain and lose a few pounds here and there and have curves and .... SO WHAT? It's our quirks and our flaws that make us unique.  Peace lies in loving and caring about yourself. You will never find it in the self obsession and emptiness that come along with damaging your body in extreme ways. Its not realistic or important to hold yourself up to some ridiculous meaningless standard that will only harm you. I live in hollywood. I know its ridiculous. I watch people destroy themselves and get sick for the acceptance of other people all the time.
so feel free to write me if you need someone to listen to you... I'll never judge you... i only hope that i can help you see the beauty that lies within you. Life is pain.. its what we do with the pain that makes us great. Loving yourself and taking care of yourself is hard when the negative black thoughts start creeping in....but its necessary if you want to continue growing.. or if you want to have a healthy life.
Everyone has greatness inside of them.
 
I also have a joke that i have something called the "strawberry freedom train" because i came right out of strict mormon culture into who i am. a free thinking fearless non judgemental artist. I wish that everyone would feel special enough to know that god loves them just as they are....I DONT BELIEVE IN A JUDGEMENTAL FEARFUL GOD. that makes no sense to me.
Self esteem, ambition and imagination are my favorite traits in someone. Self esteem must NOT be mixed up with ego. ego is pride and false entitlement etc. You gain self esteem by helping others and giving back to people around you. If you want to know how you are doing with a quick test.... take a quick look at the people who are closest around you... do you build them up or tear them down? do you make people feel important or small? you gain self esteem by being a loving kind giving person. You only gain from making other people around you feel better about themselves.. When you tear other people down you are only manifesting your own pain.....
I would like to meet unique people who want to make a difference and also want to do something great in this world. People who want want to help other people deal with all the bullshit.. and rise up above it.
Tila and I were just talking at dinner about different things.... i think its bullshit that people who are fearless and out there and rock n' roll aren't considered "good role models" .. um. excuse me... i think people who put themselves out there even in the storm of criticism and make art and music that's true and keep going as THEMSELVES are the true role models that we need!! we live in a vapid society focused on the unimportant and meaningless.
Its so easy to feel powerless but we ARENT. I hope my contribution here is that i can speak my mind fearlessly and talk about issues at hand in an interesting way.. we are all in the same boat...Its easy to feel small and insignificant..dont listen to those voices! you ARE important...
and I hope to MEET YOU! xo